a Day in Our Life

Caution: Project Work is detrimental to your health

10 reasons why I hate Project Work:
1) It takes away most of leisure time.
2) It makes me stay up until 2 am to finish some stupid report.
3) I am sick of taking minutes for EVERY meeting.
4) It is part of curriculum time, so it sort of extends the school days.
5) AW sucks.
6) OP sucks.
7) I hate going out on Sundays to discuss about the project.
8) PW sucks.
9) PW sucks.
10) and PW really sucks.

Out of the 10, I am most paranoid of (6). Gee, I am not exactly an eloquent speaker, and I have stage fright. SEVERE satge fright. I screwed up every public speaking as far as I can remember.

In Sec 1, I was supposed to perform an advertisement on something. My partner(thank god I had a partner, or else I will just DIE) thought of the whole thing and we just said out the lines lor. That time was not too bad.

However, when I was in Sec2. I was supposed to do public speaking ALONE. And I screwed up my first chance(we had to do public speaking twice a year). And I had practised in front of the mirror for a trillion times. On that day, I fumbled and trembled so much that I think the teacher did not even know what I was murmuring. *Sigh*

In Sec 3 &4, life was not too bad. There was no public speaking for our band, but we had to do presentations for once or twice a year. However, Social Studies was the worst of all times. THAT GUY asked us to do presentations every now and then, which always made me jittery. And I always screwed up my presentations.

I was so paiseh everytime I did presentation. I did not perform well for the 2 major presentations I have done so far this year. And the PW Oral Presentation really matters. It costs 35% of the total PW. Walau.

I had, on several occasions, lost sleep because of PW. During the hectic Term 3, we have to hand in like survey, interview drafts and Written Report drafts and the Group Project File. Phew. Those were the killers. Before the deadline, I was always slogging in front of the computer. Like I have mentioned, I have stayed up until 2 am, 2.26am to be exact.

On one occasion, I was sleeping soundly, listening to my Arashi CD...and SUDDENLY the handphone vibrated like mad. I thought "Oh sh*t, I hope is not..." and true enough, it was my group mate asking me to print out something. Fortunately, I have printed that out and so I switched off the handphone and went back to sleep. However, my sleep was disrupted and I stared at the ceiling and the ceiling stared back at me for at least and hour before my eyelids shut down like the camera's shutter.

-Change topic-

Today is the 401 Class outing day, they are going to Marina to have steamboat. I don't have any sense of belonging when I was in 401 and now. I just don't feel attached to my classmates. They are ok to me. I was always invisible in the class anyway. I was not in existence, sadly. I was always minding my own business at my own comfort, without bothering anyone.

The guys hve been my classmates for the whole 4 years of my secondary life and sadly, I have nothing to talk to them. Well, 1 or 2 of them are quite nice, and I talked to them online when we went our separate ways at the beginning of the year. The class girls are generally nice people, but girls are girls. Sometimes frequencies do not match means they do not match. Something just canot be forced. Even if I really go for the class outing, I will just sit at one corner and pretend I don't exist. Sad case, but that is true. They like Jolin Tsai and I like KinKi Kids. They like sports and I don't. They like asking for tips and I like studying on my own. Those are the differences. In a nutshell, our paths just don't cross.

Phew. So Long. Have to start Pw-ing. *Sigh*

Song of the Day: Virtual Reality by Koichi Domoto(^^) from G Album

posted by AMIGO @ Saturday, October 16, 2004